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New River Gorge, VA.

Thu, 23 May 2013 11:22:06 -0400

New River Gorge, VA.

So I’m going on vacation to Pennsylvania tomorrow and I was stressed about it because of...

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:54:41 -0400

So I’m going on vacation to Pennsylvania tomorrow and I was stressed about it because of reasons but I think it’s going to be okay. Also I’m starting to go to Panera, Chipotle, Subway, and Pita Pit on a semi-frequent basis which makes everything easier for when I’m in Pittsburgh. I’m just kinda mad because I have no way to cook for two weeks so no homemade chicken and rice for me :// My dad told me if I eat 1600 calories per day and end up gaining 5 pounds, he’ll pay for me to stay at the Wilderness Lodge at Disney overnight and eat breakfast at the buffet there so I’m sort of considering it but uh I don’t think I’ll be able do it. SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO MAINTENANCE.

Anyway don’t unfollow me for not being on as much I still luv u

Wow I just ate a peanut butter and jelly and it made my mood increase by about 1000% and all I want...

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:44:24 -0400

Wow I just ate a peanut butter and jelly and it made my mood increase by about 1000% and all I want is eight more of them

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind This movie rips apart my...

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:29:30 -0400

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

This movie rips apart my insides /:

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Tue, 21 May 2013 10:37:40 -0400

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Tue, 21 May 2013 10:36:02 -0400

That’s what life is. The 6 inches in front of your face.

Tue, 21 May 2013 00:42:06 -0400

That’s what life is. The 6 inches in front of your face.

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Mon, 20 May 2013 23:05:05 -0400

riseabovetheashes: bae all i want in my life is to fuck...

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:01:42 -0400

riseabovetheashes:

bae

all i want in my life is to fuck yolandi

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Mon, 20 May 2013 22:28:45 -0400

blua: Brookies {Brownies + Cookies}

Mon, 20 May 2013 21:50:42 -0400

blua:

Brookies {Brownies + Cookies}

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Mon, 20 May 2013 21:04:43 -0400

i feel u jj

Mon, 20 May 2013 21:03:48 -0400

i feel u jj

This is me bitching real hard about my day. I seriously have had the worst day I’ve had in a...

Mon, 20 May 2013 17:54:55 -0400

This is me bitching real hard about my day.

I seriously have had the worst day I’ve had in a long time. If I talked about every issue i faced with the local community college, it would take hours. So just know that I spent three hours of my morning on the phone with idiots who did absolutely nothing to fix any of the problems that they created. And now I can’t take the class I needed to apply for my major program in the fall. which is a HUGE problem that they have no interest in fixing.

Then my dad decided he was going to take out all of his anger about work on me and force me to run last minute errands for me while I was already busy.

Then I found out that we’re staying at my aunt’s house for the next two weeks in Pennsylvania. My crazy religious aunt who works the night shift, so you have to be silent in the house all day while she sleeps. And she’s refusing to let Lowen and I sleep in the same room even if my mom and brother are in the room with us. Because apparently she thinks we’ll fuck in front of my MOTHER AND TWELVE YEAR OLD BROTHER. I didn’t realize that she was my mom now?

And then when I was in walgreens, three different terrifying guys in their late 20s followed me around and blatantly hit on me and would not leave me alone no matter what I did. That sounds like an arbitrary complaint, but it really freaks me out and I get really severe anxiety when that happens.

Not to mention right now I have no idea how to maintain my weight and what calories to eat so I am a ravenous beast at all times. I’m trying to evolve to ‘fuck it’ mode and just eat whatever I want at all as long as it’s under 1300 calories but I’m too freaked out to do that. Which sounds kind of ridiculous when I type it out. Maybe I should just get fat again so that white men don’t make me feel uncomfortable every single time I leave my house.

Sometimes I actually regret ever trying to lose weight because I’m a crazy person now.

And that’s my day. That’s the end. I’m about to go drown my sorrows in rice and chicken so bye

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Mon, 20 May 2013 17:42:42 -0400

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Mon, 20 May 2013 13:42:31 -0400

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Mon, 20 May 2013 13:42:06 -0400

No questions. Just wanted to say it's nice to see what you've done, how you're open about it and who you are, and that I'm so much more motivated ever since I found your blog (: Greetings from Prague, beautiful! xxxx

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:37:00 -0400

Oh wow, haha. Thank you so much! Glad I could help :3

I don’t care if it hurts. I wanna have control. I want a perfect body. I want a perfect...

Mon, 20 May 2013 11:38:19 -0400

I don’t care if it hurts. I wanna have control.

I want a perfect body. I want a perfect soul.

bali-girls: q’d

Mon, 20 May 2013 11:37:37 -0400

bali-girls:

q’d